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HE:

If she would be having a meeting or some office work, she should have informed me.

She didn’t call me. My extension or even cell number was available with the telephone directory.

Did she do it for the only reason that she wanted to show that she doesn’t care for me and prove her importance?

SHE:

Today there happened a real disaster. The servers were down and I was so busy in recovering them,

debugging the code that I almost forgot I had my first ‘date’ with Niru. I suddenly remembered it just before going to a meeting at 2

and I was sure that I can easily finish off with the meeting by 4 and meet Niru, but no. The destiny had some other plans.

I had to be in meeting till 5. I even couldn’t phone Niru and inform him that I am not coming. By the time I was free from that chaos, it was already 6.

He must have left for the day. He was going to Mumbai today, so he must have left early.

What can I do? I wanted to meet him and apologize face to face. Mail or phone won’t do. I hope we meet on Tuesday.

I’ll explain him everything. He is a nice guy. He will understand me properly. I am hoping so, obviously I don’t have any other option at least till Tuesday.

HE:

I left for the day early today at 6. I had traveled from Bangalore in the morning and so needed rest or was it just to avoid her since

she travels by 8 o’clock bus?

I don’t know the reason but I felt like just avoiding her.

SHE:

Where is he? He must have come from Bangalore in the morning and joined directly, that’s why he wasn’t in the morning bus,

but why not in the usual evening bus at 8 ? Probably he was tired. Let’s hope he meets me tomorrow morning.

He will listen to me and this time I will invite him for a coffee or so.

HE:

Yesterday, she explained me the whole thing. How stupid of me? I was thinking really absurd things about her.

She is such a cute girl; it was not her mistake that she had to attend the meeting. I was kind of ok when she gave me the explanation.

The conversation after that just went normal as it used to be earlier. Whatever that might be but I am not going to ask her out anymore.

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HE:

Since Rajesh has introduced us to each other, the days have been very good for us.

I mean I didn’t talk to her or so, but at least we exchange smile regularly.

Let’s see whether I can sit beside her sometime and have a word or two.

HE:

I sat beside her today in the bus while returning from office.

We were chatting a lot, on no specific topics as such, but I really enjoyed her company.

She is really a cute, simple and sweet girl. She said she will be reserving a seat for me in the morning bus.

Let’s see whether she really keeps her promise…

HE:

Since last few days, she had been reserving a seat for me in the morning as well as in the evening bus.

We both seem to enjoy each other’s company very well. I decided to take a step forward today.

I asked her for a cup of coffee in the afternoon. I was a bit depressed about what she might reply but surprisingly,

she said yes without thinking even for a moment as if she was actually waiting for such a move from my side.

We decided to meet at 4 near the café inside the campus.

She didn’t turn up. I don’t have her cell number so I even couldn’t call her and ask why she did so.

It was so embarrassing for me to wait there just alone. Did she do it purposefully?

Why? I could make out no sensible reason.

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HE:

Today can be called as the luckiest day of my life. I talked to her face to face for the first time.

Rajesh, my friend had some work today and was travelling by our bus and surprisingly he knew her well.

They were college mates during the degree. He introduced us formally. I was so happy,

that I just forgot that sometime back she just avoided sitting beside me. Everything in my brain, all my nervousness,

and hatred for her as well as for my loser …all was just washed up.

Now I can talk to her, I hope I can turn this chance to success.

Oh god, thanks a lot… Rajesh was just like an angel sent by you.

SHE:

Thanks a lottt god…. I am so happy. Even he was. I could easily make that out from his face.

It was just so bright. He still has feelings for me. Thank god, I thought after that day I kinda lost him, but no.

Now we can talk to each other officially. No problem of who is first … we are friends now. God you are great.

RAJESH:

Today I had some work so had to travel by office bus. I thought better to go with Niru just for the sake of good company

but it didn’t seem to be necessary when I saw my best friend from our degree college traveling by the same bus.

It was a really pleasant surprise to see her after a couple of years or so. I think my transfer to Bangalore will result in some good thing.

She has become more beautiful than she was in our college days. Damn.. why the hell did I neglect her in college when she had crush on me…

I hope she is still single, not even committed or so. I would like simple girl like to get settled in life. Now I am well settled in job,

should go forward with love matter also. When I introduced Niru to her today,

somehow her face lit up as if she was eager to have a word or two with him since many days.

Niru’s condition was no different. Do they have something between them? I hope there is nothing of such sort.

Oh God, thanks a lot that you made me meet her, I hope you help me once again to make her mine.

Please just keep Niru out of this.

GOD:

If you get only happiness then you don’t feel its value, do you?

That’s why everything is planned in such a way that whenever you get happy you should understand its true value.

I haven’t done anything special here. It’s all just happening as predefined.

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HE:

I resumed my normal duty today. It was good to see all those familiar faces once again after so many days.

Of course my eyes were searching only one face out of that but still.

Just like my normal schedule, I got into the bus. She was sitting there with the same plain look on her face,

nowhere even a single line of recognition, but when she saw me, her face reflected a small smile.

It couldn’t escape my notice. Was she happy to see me back in the bus? I don’t know about her, but I was definitely happy to see her.

Week end is coming ahead hope it will bring something good in my life. Today is “salary day” so thinking what to do this week end?

Hope start of new month with bring in new joy, happiness to my life. BTW today new kannada movie “Inthi Ninna Preetiya” is getting released.

Promos looks good must plan to watch this movie………..

SHE:

I was so happy, I tried my best to conceal my happiness but I felt like getting up from my seat and just sit beside him and talk,

talk and just talk to him. Hey what’s this? What’s happening to me? I never felt like this for anyone.

Is this just sympathy for that evening thing or is this love? No chance of it. I don’t believe in this love at first sight or so.

We don’t know each other, we don’t know anything about each other, how can this be love?

Probably just infatuation… whatever it may be… I am loving this feeling very much

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HE:

I was working in the night shift for the whole week so had to travel by cab rather than bus.

I used to work from 4.00 p.m. to 2.30 a.m. so naturally I had lost contact with almost all people working in dayshift except for my teammates who would

surrender the charge to me while leaving for the day. For the whole week I didn’t travel by bus. Obviously didn’t see her.

She works in the adjacent building only, but I don’t know where her cubicle is located exactly and anyways even if I would be knowing that,

I don’t think I have that much guts to approach her.

For almost a week I didn’t see her, but I didn’t feel any desperation to see her.

I was unbelievably aloof in this case. Was it the effect of that evening incidence?

HE:

Today, the office had planned to screen a movie in the campus. I had seen it but thought of enjoying it with friends in the open air.

I took the permission for an hour from my boss and went for that. The dialogues were not much audible on the lawns,

but it was fun to watch the movie in an open air theatre like that.

I was to leave the place to return to my cubicle and turned around when I saw her standing there just around 10 feet away from me.

I don’t know why but my heart started speeding a lot higher than even Schumi’s Ferrari.

She just smiled at someone in the crowd at my back, tried her best not to look directly to me and just left the place.

I stood there for a minute or two just wondering what had happened.

Why did she smile? Did she feel good that I am still in the same company only or she didn’t even take notice of my presence and

really smiled at someone in the crowd at my back? But we were so close that it was practically impossible for her to just ignore me.

SHE:

I saw him today, at the movie screening. Thank god he is still working with this company only.

I thought of smiling at him and greeting him. I was so happy to see him, I wanted to ask him where he was for so many days,

whether he was not well, had he changed his house or was he using bike for the transport, but again I didn’t ask a single question.

I stayed calm. I didn’t want to embarrass him again.

I don’t know what I feel about him, but somehow whenever I see him, I do feel better.

I hope he starts travelling by bus again.

Everyday we can see each other in the morning and wish each other a very good morning without any words or smile but just with a plain look.

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SHE:

Today I saw him in the food court. He was there with two girls and was chatting, laughing, cracking jokes.

He seemed to enjoy the company. Is he also a typical boy who just wants to have as many girls around him as possible?

Is he a typical flirt? Does he want me also to get included in that group for showcasing?Probably the two girls were just good friends of him. At least I hope so.

Please god please let those be his sisters or just friends, nothing else.

HE:

Since that evening thing has happened, I have left staring at her. I don’t know but some inner voice is telling me to keep away.I am not a street walking beggar to be treated like this. She might consider herself whatever she might think of. She is beautiful, indeed, but that doesn’t mean she can insult me like that. I have sward not to look at her again anymore and just to avoid her looks.But I can’t stay like this. I just like her and want to be with her. She has committed a mistake, but wasn’t that a bit natural?

She doesn’t like me and doesn’t want to encourage my feelings about her. Simple isn’t it? That’s it. A complete halt for my feelings and my dreams, but I don’t think I can manage not to have even a look at her.

Will I be able to do it? There is some saying, ‘Oh god, change the situation around me to favor me. At least give me the strength to change it. If I can’t change it, at

least give me the strength to bear it.’ Oh God, please listen to me.

GOD:

You don’t remember me when you are happy or contempt do you?

When there is a problem or a really difficult situation, then you start remembering me or praising me don’t you?

I still won’t interfere here. My world is a complex entity with each and every thing or event properly planned for some specific future as well as past reason.

Why should I interfere and break the balance of all these systems myself?

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SHE:

Today he seemed to have lost in thoughts. When he got into the bus, surprisingly he didn’t search for me. He even didn’t look up.

He just went straight to the last seat and started reading a novel. I tried looking at him once or twice but he didn’t lift his head at all.

I think he is hurt, I am feeling sorry, but what can I do? When we got down at the office gate,

I purposefully lingered a bit more at the gates to give back him a smile, but I couldn’t spot him in the crowd.

Niru, I am sorry, please be normal again.

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SHE:

Today was a holiday. So I couldn’t see him, although I wanted to. I actually wanted to apologize for whatever happened yesterday.

I got into the bus and searched for the seat. He was sitting alone on the seat for 3, it was a good chance for me to sit with him and have a word or two.

I was just thrilled. I was about to sit on the same seat when Kruti said something. I didn’t hear it properly so I turned to her.

She said,”See, Raghav is there, he has reserved seats for us.” I just hate that Raghav; he is always ready to flirt provided the other person is a girl.

Whenever I see him, somehow I try my best to be as away from him as I can, I even show hatred to him directly on my face but this guy simply ignores this.

I don’t know why Kruti likes him so much.

So the point is I went to the seat that Raghav had reserved specially for us. I felt really bad for Niru, but if I would have denied Raghav’s offer and would

have sat on Niru’s seat; it would have just been too obvious. He must have felt embarrassed. Poor guy.

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HE:

Today when I got into the bus and looked at her, she returned back a cute smile. Was she serious?

I don’t know; probably she must have told her friends about me and they must have been making fun of me and that’s why

when I got into the bus she started laughing and I misunderstood it for smiling. Such a fool of me.

Damn, her friends must be having fun discussing things about me.

SHE:

Today when he got into the bus, I smiled at him. But he seemed to be more puzzled than pleased.

Is he really interested in having friendship with me or not? I really don’t know. Why am I thinking so much about him?

Have I started liking him? Or is it just like you just get used to some things as a habit, and then you unknowingly start liking them?

I think it’s the latter case here. Please god please let that guy be a descent one. My sixth sense says he is a descent guy.

I think he must have got puzzled because of the smile I gave him. It wasn’t my fault, for I showed him that I am interested in friendship.

Now the ball lies in his court. Will he dare first to talk?

HE:

I am damn confused. I don’t know what to do. Every day everyone around me is bombarding me with some tactics to approach her

but nothing seems to suit me well. My roommates even started taunting me that I can’t have a girlfriend or at least the guts to approach the gal.

I am leaving it now on luck. I will just continue whatever is going on; let the luck take us wherever and however intended.

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HE:

My roommate told me to approach her and get introduced to her all by myself. It’s not that easy; this is not a college,

What if she complains about this to higher authorities? No, I can’t take this risk.

Someone else better introduce her to me. God, can you help me please?

SHE:

My cousin told me to show some sign to him that I am ok in having friendship with him. I think he is afraid to come forward.

I’ll give him a good friendly smile tomorrow, when he gets into the bus.

I hope he understands and decrypts my signal. God, can you please help him?

GOD:

Now should I come into this picture? Both of these human beings are acting as if they are in a big problem.

Although not for me, I had made life so simple for you, just added a bit of emotions there and see how complex you have made it.

Now that I am the god, you must have been expecting me to intervene and have some miracle, but no; I won’t interfere here.

I have created this world with some fixed rules and everything is just working as per that.

Why should I just interfere and break my own rules thereby disrupting the balance of this whole system?

…..To be continued

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Hi friends,

From today, I will start a series of mails Named “Autograph” which is supposedly a real story.

I hope you like it.

Here is the first part.

HE:

I wait everyday till 8.00 in the office even if there is no work. All of my teammates ask me why; how can I tell them that I don't wait for any

personal or official work but the only reason why I wait is the 'secretary'- a girl in my 8.00 p.m bus.

'Secretary' is not her real name, it's sort of a code name given to her by me and my friends. Truly speaking, I like her. She might not be one of those

who look like Aishwarya Rai or Preitty Zinta, but she is cute and simple and that's the reason I like her. For past 6 months I have been staring at her

in the bus, while going to office and coming back from the office. When I get into bus, somehow my eyes search the whole bus just to have her glimpse.

I never had a girlfriend till now, not that I don't like to have friendship with girls but somehow they usually prefer tall-dark-handsome qualities in their

boyfriends, out of which I possess none. I don't want to jump to any relationship like this with the secretary but at least just a friendship, is it possible?

I want to talk to her. I want to have friendship with her. I know her name, for I had seen her ID card one day. But I don't have the guts to talk to her.

I even don't know whether she knows me even by face. I know, no one can help me here; no-one other than myself, but I simply have no guts.

At least someone probably a common friend,

might at least formally introduce us to each other.

SHE:

There is one guy in my office bus. His name is Niranjan. I think he likes me, for me and even my friends have observed him many times staring at myself.

Even when he gets into the bus, rather than searching for an empty seat, his eyes search the whole bus for me. Don't know why but I kind of like it.

Sometimes the feeling of knowing that someone loves you is far better than actually loving somebody. I didn't have any affair till today, not that I didn't

like or love anyone, there was a guy in my college, whom I liked a lot but somehow he stayed away from me, not that he didn't like me but probably

because I am not that beautiful and he wanted someone much more better than me.

This guy, Niru, that's what his friends call him, I had heard it once in the bus; he seems to be interested in me, not sure about love as such but

friendship might not be bad. At least the guy seems to be descent one. I would like to be his friend, but how can I go forward?

After all he is the boy, he should come one step ahead and not me.

To be continued...

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