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SHE:

Yesterday after so many days I cried. I cried a lot. I was completely lost in dilemma.

I was not able to think properly. What should I do? I loved Rajesh a couple of years ago but he didn't, at that time.

Now he loves me but I love Niru. Rajesh wants to settle down in life and he wants me to be with him. Niru has not planned something of that sort,

he is just going to complete his MBA first and then will think of getting settled. Rajesh , he is of my age, very much mature;

whereas Niru is younger, a bit of immature but that suits his age. Rajesh, my family knows him very well and will be ready perhaps eager

to include him in as my husband; whereas Niru, I haven't told anything about him to mom or dad yet.

But I love Niru a lot, probably more than I used to love Rajesh in college days. How should I make a decision?

Based on feeling for love or based on my future, the practical aspects for my life? Where should I go?

Oh god, please help me. I need you immensely. Please please, help me make the decision.

HE:

Last few days just flew past like a stormy wind. All those processes I had to undergo in order to leave the company,

just because I wanted to pursue better career in MBA rather than staying here and stagnating. A few more days and I am off to achieve my dreams.

Just the problem is, I don't want to leave her, my love, my secretary. I really love her.

Since when my infatuation turned into love was unknown even to me. I don't want to leave her but I can't even stay here.

Even I am doing MBA in Mumbai not even here in Pune. Will she wait for me for at least 2-3 years which I will need to complete MBA and get settled?

I have said goodbye to everyone, it was not that difficult; but it's definitely not the same with her.

I don't know whether I will be able to say her goodbye and how I am going to do that.

SHE:

I have made my decision. I don't know how to convey it but I will have to do it.

One of the two hearts is going to get broken but there is no any other way. I have made my decision and I'll stick to it.

Oh god, please give me strength to convey the decision and then bear everything that follows...

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Rajesh:

Today I proposed to her. She didn’t show any expressions as such on face and asked for sometime to think about it,

but I know she must have be just too happy for she had crush on me in our college life. I think she will say ‘yes’.

Just that I need to confirm that Niru doesn’t come in between. Everything should go smooth otherwise.

Even her and my parents would not have any problem in fact they would be happy if she and I get into the most beautiful relationship.

HE:

Today she called me up and asked to meet for a coffee at our usual place, but later suddenly she called up to cancel the meeting.

I don’t know why. She sounded stressed a bit on phone so I concluded it to be the result of work pressure.

But when I saw her in the evening in the bus today, she was in a bit off-mood. I don’t know why. She then just held my hand.

I think she wanted to say something but she was not able to. I couldn’t even understand what she wanted to say but I kept mum.

When my stop came nearer, she released my hand. I asked her whether she was alright. She didn’t reply anything else than ‘yes, just fine’.

I tried calling her in the night after dinner, but she didn’t pick up. I think she must be stressed because of the work and must have slept early.

I hope nothing is wrong. Oh god, please take care of her.

SHE:

Today was the most dreadful day for me. Rajesh proposed to me. My mood was off.

I loved him in college but he didn’t seem to pay any attention to me. At times he literally avoided me.

Later somehow I just managed to overcome that feeling. I loved him, but he didn’t. There are no conditions in love afterall.

I tried my best to forget feelings about him, at least suppress them. He never seemed to like me. Then why now?

Has his feelings really changed ? or he is just playing games with me?

I was going to propose Niru today. It would have been the most crucial moment of my life and this guy,

Rajesh just turned off my mood. I was literally shocked to hear from him. Not that I don’t like him but now that a couple of years have passed

when we had no contact and even Niru is there in my life. Much water has flown down the bridge. I don’t know whether I still love him,

and I also don’t know whether Niru is ready to have a commitment as such with me. I am just confused.

Oh god, please help me. Show me some way. Why didn’t you device any automatic system to solve such problems?

GOD:

Automatic system ? Wow!!! All these software engineers think alike. They think just the computerization of every system solves most of the related problems.

But real life is not so simple. The real life is much more complex thing to handle. In arithmetic you have 1+1 =2;

but in real life you may have 1+1 as anything but 2. That’s life.

About the automatic system to solve the real life problems, I have given you humans one such machine.

Some call it heart, some mind or some just brain. I gave you the ability to think. You can take decisions based on your prior experience,

your conscience and you can very easily use it to make decisions and I am sure even she will find out a way in this ambivalence

because even if she does not trust my creations, I do.

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HE:

What the hell… what does she think of herself? Today she invited me for a coffee at 4.

I went there on time. I didn't want to miss it but again she didn't turn up. Why?

Is she just stressing how important she is and how unimportant I am for her?

I felt like calling her there only and just ask the reason why is she playing games with me like this.

I decided to ask this for full and final what the matter was, but she didn't turn up even for 8 o'clock bus.

HE:

I couldn't see her for last 3 days. Did she come to office? Isn't she feeling well? I hope she is alright.

Oh God, please protect her.

Rajesh:

Her father was seriously ill. As a family friend, I helped a lot. She couldn't go to office for a fortnight or so,

but I helped her in conveying the matter to her seniors. I think this last week helped me a lot as in building a rapport with her and her parents.

Fate has given me a good chance to get closer to her, I think I can progress here.

SHE:

Today I met Niru finally after so many days. I thought he might be still angry about the coffee thing, but to my surprise,

he was a bit tensed as to why I was not coming to the office. I explained him that daddy was seriously ill.

He enquired about dad's health and then simply changed the subject to turn my attention to somewhere else.

He was just trying to take me out of the tension about dad's health. He is such a mature guy, I knew he would understand.

SHE:

Niru and I have been going out for a long time now. I have started loving him.

I think even he is serious about this relationship but he is younger than me and I don't think he is ready for any commitment at this stage of his life,

but mumma and dad are pursuing me for marriage; what should I do? Should I ask him?

SHE:

Niru told me today that he is leaving the company. He has got an admission to MBA in a College in Mumbai.

It's really difficult to be away from him at least for 2 years. Should I ask him for a relationship?

Will he be ready for that or he just wants to wait till the completion of his MBA? But I can't wait that much.

I think I'll better ask him straight about the commitment let's see what he says.

To be continued.. ….